Chapter By Chapman

I bought a gorgeous diary from Kikki K three weeks ago and each weekly page has a motivational quote at the bottom.  I am a sucker for cringey quotes so it’s just another element of the diary that I love. Last week’s quote really stood out to me. It was by Jim Rohn, an American entrepreneur, author and motivational speaker: “Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change.” This really made me reflect on what I’ve changed over the past months because I have been actively focusing on changing bits of my life that were no longer making me happy and I feel like a different person. For those of you who don’t know, I have been taking what I was calling a ‘gap year’ this last year. But before you think I'm going to start bragging about waterfalls and sky dives, it wasn’t anything like the rich kids of Instagram who travel the world… Not even close. I gained a place on the reserve list at a drama school in December, so I felt like my year out got off to a great

It is a well-known fact to the people that know me that I am clumsy. It’s got to the point where I have to declare it when I meet people just to break the ice. Not literally ‘break’ the ice, but something will probably (definitely) get broken with me around. I don't know whether it would be better for me to accept it in the hope that it would become easier to control. I’ve tried to deny it! For years and years I have pretended that I am as safe as others around me but it is just too apparent that my clumsiness trumps all. So here I am admitting it! I am clumsy! Let me tell the whole world! That was 6 months ago, and since I have smashed numerous items of crockery and glassware, so I think we can safely assume that denying it or not, it’s still there. I just have to accept that is part of who I am, an ingrained piece of my personality, neither good nor bad, merely frustrating at times. Looking on the bright side though, it has taught me something. It has taught me